'I wanted to kill myself': Madonna regrets turning down 'The Matrix'

Madonna, who’s seemingly done it all, has still missed out on a major opportunity in life and she wishes she hadn’t. The pop star expressed her regret over just that on Thursday night's episode of NBC's The Tonight Show.

The singer revealed to host Jimmy Fallon that she once turned down a role in The Matrix, and that’s one of the biggest regrets of her life till this day. "Can you believe that? I wanted to kill myself," she said during the interview. "That's like one of the best films ever made. A teeny-tiny part of me regrets just that one moment in my life."

Released in 1999, sci-fi flick The Matrix revolves around a hacker, Neo, played by Keanu Reeves, who gets stuck inside a simulated reality. The film also stars Laurence Fishburne, Carrie-Anne Moss, Hugo Weaving, and Joe Pantoliano. The Matrix's box office success led to two sequels The Matrix Reloaded and The Matrix Revolutions, both of which released in 2003. A fourth film in the franchise, The Matrix Resurrections, is due to release soon.

Madonna also revealed that she once missed out on playing Catwoman in Batman Returns and a leading role in Showgirls. "I saw them both and I regret that I turned down Catwoman, that was pretty fierce," confessed the singer about the role which eventually landed in Michelle Pfeiffer’s lap. But she doesn’t regret missing out on Showgirls.

Madonna is currently directing a film that she wrote about her own life, according to Entertainment Weekly. While several studios have previously expressed the wish to produce films about her life, none of the proposed pitches ever made the cut. Madonna told Fallon that one of the films was "the most hideous, superficial piece of crap I've ever read."

"I'm thinking, 'Why would these people want to make a film about my life?' There's nothing true in the script. And a director behind one of the proposed films had no appreciation for women,” she lamented.

Madonna announced back in September 2020 that she would produce her own biopic, and she continued to tell Fallon on Thursday, "There is nobody on this planet that can write or direct [or] make a film about me better than me."

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