With signs of a faint smile and his young son clutched tight in his arms, Qari Muhammad Saad Iqbal Madni appears to be a man at war with himself – trying to make the most of his present, while fighting his way out of a disturbing past.
A former Guantanamo Bay inmate, Madni spent seven years in confinement out of which five years were spent in the “grave-like” cells of the world’s most notorious prison facility run by the American Central Intelligence Agency (CIA). The detention and torture took place on across the globe, across at least four countries.
Three years after he was released in 2009, the scars on his body and soul are healing — somewhat slowly.
Madni’s life back with his family is ironic for him – given that the conditions at Guantanamo compelled him to attempt suicide on at least two occasions.
The return has been difficult.
“I want to live a life full of happiness and peace. I look forward and don’t think much about the past. Those memories scare me. I want to run away from them,” said Madni, the last of the thus far 60 Pakistanis released from the facility in Cuba.
The 34-year-old was picked up by Indonesian authorities when he was 24 years old on the request of the CIA from Jakarta in January 2002 — months after the 9/11 attacks in New York and Washington.
His seven-year detention started in Cairo, Egypt, where he was interrogated and detained for around eight months at a facility run by the CIA in collaboration with Egyptian authorities. He was then kept at the Bagram detention centre, close to Kabul, for 14 months. But the torture – psychological or otherwise – aside, Madni is haunted by one question alone: Why was he picked up in the first place, and why did it take the Americans all of seven years to finally declare him innocent.
“They told me nothing. Just picked me up. Even at the time of my release, no explanation was given,” Madni told The Express Tribune.
“I need to know and it is my right to ask: Why me?” wondered Madni, who is currently involved in a legal battle with US authorities to seek financial compensation for his “illegal” detention.
“Money is no compensation… It cannot return to me what could have been the best years of my life,” said Qari, who was 24 when the CIA picked him.
One apparent reason, which he thinks could have caused US authorities to capture him, could have been his knowledge of Arabic and association with an institute in Jakarta being run with the financial help of the Saudi government.
For Qari, everything that he was subjected to while at Gitmo – from water boarding to physical torture, from mental agony to witnessing the desecration the Holy Quran and emotional breakdown due to sleepless nights for several months – was sheer pain.
But the most excruciatingly horrifying experience was what he faced in a fellow Muslim country, Egypt, by local intelligence authorities.
“Look, what the Americans did to me was expected. But the way I was treated by the Egyptians was unbelievable … That experience gave me scars that refuse to heal,” he explained.
Among his interrogators in Cairo, he claims, was Gamal Mubarak, son of ousted president of Egypt Hosni Mubarak. He says that, as the intelligence chief of his father’s regime, Gamal personally took part in the interrogation of all al Qaeda suspects in Egypt, including Qari.
The battle to forget is an uphill one, but in the continuing fight to bury the memories of his unfortunate past, Qari clutches onto the one of the few things that gives him hope: his son.
Published In The Express Tribune, June 5th, 2012.
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The CIA picks a lot of Americans to torture, not only people we are at war with. There are so many CIA who are not even American, like they might be Iraqi CIA, or Italian, who knows. If they pick an American, they will torture them with ELF waves, they have the stalked and psychologically tortured by police and first responders, they break into their houses, vandalize their cars, and they start killing people around them, one by one, using directed energy weapons. They can fry anyone, from satellites now, and they can torture anyone, until they kill themselves, or they decide to kill them. This is going on with thousands of Americans, right now. Targeted Individuals. The one who targeted me, was Iraqi, and when I see my local police harassing me because of him, it really make me sick to see what our country has turned into because of the diabolically mentally ill CIA.
"why did it take the Americans all of seven years to finally declare him innocent." They didn't know if he was innocent or not for seven years....but they definitely know every person killed in a drone attack is a militant.
Far left wingers and US toadies should comment..
@Sara: So you're saying you haven't watched Khuda Ke Liye?
Are Pakistani filmmakers sleeping? The only way to get this injustice seen or cared for, by the outside world, is through media, media and more media!.... Look how the Americans supported their murderer Ray Davis...and not one American dared speak against him...whereas you have fools from here saying that traitor doctor should be given a "reward!" HA!... but that's another story.... coming back to this, MAKE A MOVIE!!! In fact, all normal Pakistanis can also do something, by making short clips and uploading them on youtube... make a reenactment.. we saw some good parodies of Humsafar, so if we can do that, we can do this as well... the west calls us the bad guys, but with such fool proof evidence against them, we still are unable to make them feel ashamed, or get the spotlight on them, away from us? Come on guys, it's time we got serious, let's stop whining and DO SOMETHING! And that means using the power of the media... And why is this man not on every talk show on TV? His name should be on the lips of every anchor, every "Breaking News" should have been about him ... the Americans whine about having terrorists like Ray Davis locked up, but they calmly lock up an innocent man for SEVEN years??!! Hypocrites!.... And we too are to blame for our silence...for not being clever enough to use such stories to our advantage..wake up people... we have the powerful internet in front of us, what more do we need?
Mr Musharraf has a lot to answer here and in the life here after.
americans you cn do everytjing you want there is no one who challanges you dictatorars ..except ALLAH...you are creating more more hatred then ever before ...you are sscared..please use your common sense and leave the people of asia in peace
Dont' know why the Pakistani government is so quite on the issue of Dr Afridi when the Amercians say RATHER demand explanation from us.
Why is the govt so afraid to ask for justice and the reasons as to why & how these Pakistanis were kept at Guantanamo bay for so long?
Where is the justice for the freed and people still hoping to be freed, before their souls leave their bodies so they too can see their loved ones for one last time?
In Army if someone is made a POW, he is discharged from the army on his return. How will we discharge these innocent souls, whose life will only come back to something akin to normality when there prime age is past them?
Who is responsible in our government for handing over majority of the detained countrymen?
And what to speak of how these are then treated at Guantanamo? This surely is a bay for the devil's army!
All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others.... but some are meant not to be considered at all as they are ‘beneath animals' – just part of 'collateral damage'.
I am sure you know the answer Mr.Madni - just unwilling to share it with us.
A True Muslim Hero. My deep respects for him The saudis are getting their men back from GItmo while our gov have not even once raised their voice for our innocent men languishing in that torture camp