Michaela Coel says writing 'I May Destroy You' was 'lonely and dark' despite critical success

'I May Destroy You' was inspired by Michaela Coel's own experience of sexual assault

Michaela Coel is reflecting on the emotional toll of her creative process, revealing that writing, even at the height of her success, remains a deeply isolating experience.

In an interview with People, the Emmy-winning creator of I May Destroy You described the process candidly, saying writing projects like her acclaimed series is “lonely and dark.”

Despite her reputation as a prolific storyteller, Coel admitted the work is far from enjoyable on a daily level. “It’s really hard,” she said, contrasting it with what she considers an ideal day, one filled with simple pleasures like reading, exercising, spending time with loved ones and relaxing.

The actress, now 38, rose to prominence with her breakout series Chewing Gum before achieving global acclaim with I May Destroy You, which was inspired by her own experience of sexual assault. That deeply personal project went on to earn her an Emmy, making her the first Black woman to win in the limited series writing category.

Reflecting on her creative purpose, Coel explained that her goal is to provoke a visceral response in audiences. She said she wants to “stimulate people's organs… shock your senses and stun you and remind you you're alive.”

Her work often explores trauma, identity and emotional complexity, themes she continues to carry into new projects like The Christophers and Mother Mary. Even as her career expands, Coel acknowledged that the emotional weight of storytelling remains constant.

The insight offers a rare glimpse into the reality behind critically acclaimed writing, highlighting the contrast between public success and the private challenges that come with creating deeply personal work.