Coping with loss

Published: December 22, 2014
The writer is an actor, an anchor and a model. She is currently the host of ‘Morning with Juggun’ on PTV Home and can be reached via Twitter @JuggunKazim

The writer is an actor, an anchor and a model. She is currently the host of ‘Morning with Juggun’ on PTV Home and can be reached via Twitter @JuggunKazim

Over the past eight years, I can think of perhaps three occasions when — as a television host — I’ve had tears in my eyes. On December 17, 2014, I went on air at 9:01 am and spent the majority of the transmission weeping.

Like so many others, I was shaken to the core by what happened in Peshawar. I cannot forgive and I certainly will not forget this tragedy.

But at the end of the day, I am connected only by nationality and a shared humanity to the parents and the families who lost their children. If I am so broken, how are they coping? What mechanisms are they adopting to be able to get through the days and nights that have followed this horrendous act of brutality? Do the standard psychological tools for coping with loss even apply?

The death of a child is an incredible tragedy. The death of many children is even worse. Granted a parent should never have to bury their child. It is the natural order of things for children to mourn their parents, not the other way around. It is certainly not the natural order of things for your darlings to be shot in cold blood by terrorists. But once again, it has happened. And it must be faced.

I’ve tried thinking to myself that the little ones died like heroes, that each of them was a martyr. But then I ask myself the obvious question: what if they didn’t want to be shaheeds? What if they wanted to grow up and become actors or singers or engineers?

But it is too late to ask such meaningful but sadly pointless questions. They won’t come back. They won’t grow up. When I try to think of what the parents and grandparents of these children are going through my heart skips a beat. They say that grandparents love their grandkids more than even their own kids.

Our responsibility now is not just to be there for those who mourn but also for the ones who survived. The children who have witnessed their classmates and their teachers being slaughtered in front of their eyes. That is an unimaginable trauma to live with and if left untreated, could cripple them to a point where living a ‘normal’ life may become impossible. Pakistan’s psychotherapists and child psychologists need to take time out of their normal routines and help out. Some of them have already stepped forward and their actions need to be appreciated.

While everybody is devastated, people have responded in very different ways. Some have been crying. Others have just switched themselves off emotionally and tried to get on with their lives. Another large group of people is enraged and screaming.

This country now needs rehabilitation to deal with the trauma of Peshawar. Communication has always been our weakest trait. Pakistanis are warm, welcoming and extremely strong people but we tend to brush our emotions and those of others under the carpet. We will have to express ourselves and let go of as much negativity as we can. It will not be easy but it is necessary for our emotional and psychological survival.

It is time for us to unite as a nation. For the past few days, I have been concluding my show with these words: “I am ashamed that I couldn’t protect my children. I am angry that I couldn’t do more. And I am so sorry.” I know we all are.

Published in The Express Tribune, December 22nd,  2014.

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Reader Comments (7)

  • raider
    Dec 22, 2014 - 9:55AM

    text like coping with loss is itself a counter intuitive, death brings about such a great loss which can not be copped or compensated


  • Milind
    Dec 22, 2014 - 1:29PM

    “But at the end of the day, I am connected only by nationality and a shared humanity to the parents and the families who lost their children”

    Now you forgot to mention your connection by religion (before nationality & shared humanity) to the parents. This would be blasphemy by Pakistani standards.

    Anyways… excellent writeup.


  • Parvez
    Dec 22, 2014 - 3:04PM

    That was good….. you talk reason and understanding. But this is a crime beyond heinous, beyond inhuman and there must be accountability if a certain catharsis, a closure, if that is possible, is to happen.


  • Javaid Bashir
    Dec 22, 2014 - 3:05PM

    Coping with the loss is an extremely difficult thing. Especially the loss of child by the parents. The children are the apples of the eyes of the parents. After the birth of a child , all the activities of the parents revolve around the child. They parents live to see the child grow into a young man or the woman.

    Mothers get disturbed over any minor sickness of the child. They spent countless hours and days worrying about it. The aches and pains suffered by the parents can not be measured in any shape or form.

    They want their child to have best of everything. They pamper him or her beyond all expectations. Death in itself is a very painful experience, and to witness the child dying before your own eyes is extremely painful and disturbing fact, that can not be changed.


  • Dec 22, 2014 - 7:30PM

    Trust a hindu to insert himself everywhere in every debate.


  • Abaid
    Dec 23, 2014 - 12:06AM

    Respected Writer,
    A very good piece of writing. Yes, we need to prove that we are one of the great Nations of the world, through our actions, unity and actions. Regards, Pakistan Zindabad.


  • Milind
    Dec 29, 2014 - 9:35AM

    @Hobi Haripur wala – Hmmm… Rather than refute my argument, you chose to stereotype me on my religion… Fair enough.. Please don’t whine about Islamophobia, the next time the world returns the favour to you.


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