For example, when I sent out a detailed email to my editor for coverage in Khyber Agency, I expected him to jump at the idea. But he immediately replied with a single concern –– “what is the guarantee that you will not get kidnapped?”
But journalists have an irrational itch to report information to the public, so after giving several reassurances to my superiors, I got the approval. Little did I know, this was only the beginning of my fear and loathing on the road to Afghanistan.
I stopped in Peshawar where a friend, Irfan Afridi, from Khyber Agency, took the responsibility to be my lifeguard. Another man accompanying us was Ahmed Choudry, who was exploring business opportunities to Afghanistan.
We spent the night with Irfan’s family in Peshawar and when his family found out about our plans, they also said “you will get killed”.
At this point, I thought to humour myself with these nerve-wracking premonitions. We started to joke about bartering Ahmed for our lives because of his American nationality. Humour helped calm my nerves with all the perceived death warnings.
The next morning, I was advised to wear shalwar qameez and a mosque cap. I had also been growing a beard as some locals who I had spoken to earlier said it will be ‘safer’ that way. Looking in the mirror that day, I barely recognised myself but at least I would stay alive, I thought.
With an eerie feeling, the trip started with lots of tense, silent moments and slowly we made our way to Khyber Agency. We were stopped at many check points but since Irfan was driving with another local sitting in the front, again as a safety measure, it was not a problem.
I met with people in Jamrud, Landi Kotal and Torkham but returned that same evening to Peshawar since the locals we met said it would be dangerous to stay in the Agency. But dangerous from whom?
Some say it is the Lashkar-i-Islam and when I tried to meet them, I was again reminded that I might endanger myself. But when I interviewed them over the phone, they warmly invited me to visit. The spokesperson said that he would guarantee my safety but added there were ‘other’ forces that may kill me.
Who are these unknown men? Talking to stakeholders, it has become difficult to say who is behind the killings since everyone has their own versions of truth. And worst affected are the refugees from the no-go areas of Bara and Teerah Valley.
But I feel these deaths are a mixture of power struggle, coupled with extortion from traders and avenging of feuds that today are being labelled as terrorism in Khyber Agency.
As I discuss with people the need to investigate and do more ground reporting in Fata, I still hear a lot of ‘you will not come back alive’. In my defence, if I made it alive once I can do it again.
Published in The Express Tribune, April 23rd, 2012.
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Glad to hear that an outsider journalist made a visit to Khyber Agency..in your article, you have just visited to Jamrud, Landi Kotal and Torkham but you have missed one place to visit and that is Bara subdivision of Khyber Agency... all these areas you have visited are safe and secure. Everyone including foreigners can go there freely... and if you want to go there, i mean to Bara, where the fighters of Lashker Islam still have control over the area. Than you can contact me....
I heard that in Khyber agency its the local Lashkar-e-Islam vs TTP.
He dare to go there at least , I hope next time he 'll vist famlies and ppl &. 'd gather some useful notes to sort out the situation , Best of Luck for the next time :))
This is an excellent, humbling piece... thank you for sharing this and other stories from Khyber.
Our record of journalist working in Tribal Areas is not very good. We heard many have lost their life. So your concern is valid.Anything that convey the ground reporting some journalists has to take risk of their life. We have heard of many a dare to death journalists who have taken tremendous risk . So we prey of your life when next time you attempt to visit the tribal areas.
Its not same all over tribal area's just visit parachinar you will see guys with mohoak and spikes. . . .but still there is no gurntee, you return alive.
You can be safe in Khyber as long as you are like one of them. You see OBL, those tajiks and uzbek guests all were safe over there, you liberals have to make issue out of everything. That is why we say SAFMA keeps saying bad things about pakistan.
haha "grow a beard and wear a mosque cap" mummy daddy kids should not travel to the tribal areas!
"But I feel these deaths are a mixture of power struggle, coupled with extortion from traders and avenging of feuds that today are being labelled as terrorism in Khyber Agency." Either you really know nothing and all this trip was just a waste of your time, or you don't want to share your findings with other Pakistanis. :) Because this can really cost you your life, more so than staying in Khyber Agency. I wish you had also mentioned that before all this crazy environment of militancy, these same agencies were safe for outsiders and that they were always welcomed.