Pakistani actor Yashma Gill's journey from atheism to Islam
'Alif' star used to argue relentlessly with anyone who would debate in favour of religion till she ran into a friend
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"Remember I told you that I was at conflict with the Almighty? I kept asking why the one who did wrong, wouldn't have anything wrong happening to them?" said actor Yashma Gill in a recent conversation on Samina Peerzada's internet show. "But you don't really understand how it all works when you're young," she elaborated.
Gill is a rising star. Her latest project is the star-studded show, Alif which casts Hamza Ali Abbasi, Sajal Aly, Kubra Khan, and Ahsan Khan.
What many might not know about the starlet is her spiritual journey and how she converted back to Islam after a phase of being an athiest
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“When you have weak faith, a veil falls cover your mind and, even if someone is answering your questions, you do not understand anything,” she said. “I used to monitor and over-analyse everything. I would make sure I don't offend anyone and am being nice to everyone and yet I was getting hurt. It reached a point that I lost faith. I used to say to myself that ‘if there was someone up there then I wouldn’t be suffering so much’."
The actor further shared how she was known for getting into arguments about religion during her university days in Australia. She was the one to oppose the notion of religion completely and wholly.
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And then she ran into a friend, Warda.
“I tell everyone about her! She still lives in Australia. She used to be a hijabi and when I saw her I thought, 'Oh no way! I am definitely not getting along with her because she is such a staunch Muslim, she will judge me,'" she added. "So I started ignoring her. But she was such a nice person, she never judged me. She understood me and my problems and started explaining things to me through my perspective."
Gill continued by saying, “She asked me to try one last thing and that was to renew my faith. She said ‘okay just try this and if your faith in God doesn’t return after this then you can continue to be an atheist’.”
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Their respect for each other grew with time. Wardah then asked Gill to pray five times a day and fast during the month of Ramazan.
“After doing everything and giving it my all, when the month was over, I went to my friend Warda and told her that I gave my one hundred percent, but I haven’t received any guidance,” she said.
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Two days after she stopped praying, Gill felt something was missing every time she heard the call to prayer.
“I was restless; the phases of anxiety that I had vanished overtime started coming back to me. It felt like I've missed a lecture or something important to do.”
It took Gill some time to realise that it was during the one month of Ramazan that she had found her first job in Australia and managed to sort out a few family problems.
“I went to Warda crying, and I told her how I was feeling. And then she told me that I should ask her about all the misunderstandings that I had at the back of my mind, and she explained all of that to me, giving references of a few lectures as well,” she further added.
“You won’t believe me but I used to never understand such things but for the first time, that day no contradictions to the answers I used to get before, came to my mind and I got this internal satisfaction.”
These realisisations and confrontations convinced Gill, who had openly given up Islam for atheism, return to Islam and find peace in having faith in God.
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Gill is a rising star. Her latest project is the star-studded show, Alif which casts Hamza Ali Abbasi, Sajal Aly, Kubra Khan, and Ahsan Khan.
What many might not know about the starlet is her spiritual journey and how she converted back to Islam after a phase of being an athiest
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szHS8G8Tscg
“When you have weak faith, a veil falls cover your mind and, even if someone is answering your questions, you do not understand anything,” she said. “I used to monitor and over-analyse everything. I would make sure I don't offend anyone and am being nice to everyone and yet I was getting hurt. It reached a point that I lost faith. I used to say to myself that ‘if there was someone up there then I wouldn’t be suffering so much’."
The actor further shared how she was known for getting into arguments about religion during her university days in Australia. She was the one to oppose the notion of religion completely and wholly.
https://www.instagram.com/p/ByTLscHBJk2/
And then she ran into a friend, Warda.
“I tell everyone about her! She still lives in Australia. She used to be a hijabi and when I saw her I thought, 'Oh no way! I am definitely not getting along with her because she is such a staunch Muslim, she will judge me,'" she added. "So I started ignoring her. But she was such a nice person, she never judged me. She understood me and my problems and started explaining things to me through my perspective."
Gill continued by saying, “She asked me to try one last thing and that was to renew my faith. She said ‘okay just try this and if your faith in God doesn’t return after this then you can continue to be an atheist’.”
https://www.instagram.com/p/ByASzFoAb3A/
Their respect for each other grew with time. Wardah then asked Gill to pray five times a day and fast during the month of Ramazan.
"I agreed to it, just to prove a point that whatever she's asking me to do is of no use," Gill asserted. She further explained how she took that up as a task and decided to give her all, making sure she understood every verse she was reciting during the prayers.
“After doing everything and giving it my all, when the month was over, I went to my friend Warda and told her that I gave my one hundred percent, but I haven’t received any guidance,” she said.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BwmPJZnAFFz/
Two days after she stopped praying, Gill felt something was missing every time she heard the call to prayer.
“I was restless; the phases of anxiety that I had vanished overtime started coming back to me. It felt like I've missed a lecture or something important to do.”
It took Gill some time to realise that it was during the one month of Ramazan that she had found her first job in Australia and managed to sort out a few family problems.
“I went to Warda crying, and I told her how I was feeling. And then she told me that I should ask her about all the misunderstandings that I had at the back of my mind, and she explained all of that to me, giving references of a few lectures as well,” she further added.
“You won’t believe me but I used to never understand such things but for the first time, that day no contradictions to the answers I used to get before, came to my mind and I got this internal satisfaction.”
These realisisations and confrontations convinced Gill, who had openly given up Islam for atheism, return to Islam and find peace in having faith in God.
Have something to add to the story? Share it in the comments below.