I Googled you up again today and sat staring at your Facebook picture for hours. I spent torturous minutes comparing every one of my features, body parts and personality traits to yours. I won some battles; I lost the others.
I sent your picture to my friends to find out if they could see what he had seen in you. They all told me you were “ugly” and for a few minutes that eased my insecurity and still-broken heart.
But none of the battles I win compare to the one you won two years ago. A battle you launched against me without my even knowing. A secret war you started despite knowing me — and knowing me well.
I keep wondering whether you Google me too?
But you’re too smitten to care about the mess you left behind. I can’t help but imagine you and him laughing together about how easy it had been to play me for a fool. I was one-dimensional to you, a figure who he told you was supposedly “neurotic”, and all you were doing was helping him stop wasting his life with me.
Sometimes I want to hear a rumour about the end of your relationship with him. I wish for another woman to do to you what you did to me, just so you can feel the bitterness I did for two years.
And then I realise, that would be the best thing that happens to you. Then you would be free of him — like I am today. Free to pursue goals, meet friends and have a semblance of a life. Something he made me give up on completely.
So the real revenge would be to see you married to him forever. To be caught in his trap forever. To see you wilt away like I had wilted. To have nothing but a toxic love that takes and takes but never gives. To love a man who betrays so easily and wickedly.
From,
The woman you betrayed
P.S: One day, I will try to forgive you — that day isn’t today.
The end of a relationship can be hard, but the heartbreak is compounded when your partner has been unfaithful. Here, the woman betrayed confesses her thoughts to the woman who stole her man.
Published in The Express Tribune, Ms T, September 9th, 2012.
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sad :( , i hope she gets her revenge !!!!!!!
women realise how much it hurts, so why do they do it to another woman. I, for one, no matter how much I love another person will instantly let him go if I find out he's involved with another person.
@zehra: Spot on! This notion of blaming the other woman (or man) baffles me. The majority of the blame lies with the one who was to remain loyal to you and didn't. The other person had nothing to lose, why would she/he care? Unless said third person was also in a relationship, in which case, that too is their loss.
Nonetheless, nice piece, very nicely put! To anyone who's ever been in your shoes, don't sulk over that person's loss; they didn't deserve you anyway!
I don't care who was at fault.
This was just really sad. :(
Good comments that make an important point.
But does ET now publish personal diary entries :S
Beautifully expressed.
We should all appreciate the husband who is willing to jump from the same bridge again. I mean, come on dude! chill, eat some pakoray with Raita-Ketchup and let the lioness battles over you, Bubbar Shair.
Though i agree to the comments above, but hey you wrote it so beautifully !
that man should be blamed more for all what he has done rather then a women who is like a new game for him ..
''The woman who stole her man''. Dil behlanay kay liye ye khayaal acha hai.It's not the 'other woman' who steals anything away,a man is a human being,not a piece of jewellery that can be stolen away.That Such misogyny is still present in our society is disappointing.This is what patriarchy has always wanted,that women should always lay the blame for everything on each other and the men get away scot free. Nobody can steal anyone away who doesn't want to be stolen away in the first place.
She didn't 'do' anything.It was 'he' who left,it was he who wanted to go.Stop blaming women for the misdeeds of men.Men are not innocent babies with milk teeth who can be forced to do anything they don't want to do.It's time to stop doing what a patriarchal society wants women to do,have the courage to face upto the truth,he wanted to stray,he wanted to leave,start holding men responsible for their actions.
i wonder why is it the woman who steals her huuby gets more blamed than the hubby, she dsnt even know u ,how can she betray u, the only person to betray cheat hurt is the perosn who left for another person!!