Since the start of my CSS journey, I have been grappling with various health issues. As CSS requires rigorous writing practice and a vast syllabus to cover, many aspirants begin their preparation by locking themselves in rooms. Although some may disagree, I believe this approach becomes necessary for students like me who come from government institutions. Some are fortunate to have had good teachers and guides in their early years, developing essential skills like writing and reading. However, not everyone is so lucky.
Hailing from a deprived district in Sindh, I didn’t have the privilege of developing these crucial skills. Without them, when I started my CSS journey, I felt compelled to isolate myself in a room. Initially, I didn’t realise the consequences, but over time, I noticed changes in my behaviour and physical health. The world seemed unworthy, and I felt disconnected from my family and friends, even when surrounded by them. These were the early symptoms of anxiety, which soon took a toll on my stomach, making me a stomach patient.
The onset of these health issues forced me to abandon my studies. However, after consulting various doctors, I continued my CSS preparation while receiving proper treatment. With the right guidance, I got back on track and developed writing and reading habits. I am now looking forward to taking the upcoming CSS exam in 2025, fully prepared.
Before that, I felt it essential to share the dark side of isolating oneself for CSS preparation. If one invests ample time in self-improvement, say, two years for someone from a humble background like me, to refine their English writing expression and expand their reading horizons, then there’s no need to lock oneself away. By dedicating just two hours to writing and two hours to reading consistently, one can develop these skills without facing the issues I did.
Manoj Kumar Kesrani
Thari Nizamani, Matli
